Ecstatic Meditation
Rabbi Shefa Gold
2000


The object of my practice is to learn how to live every moment in the awareness of God’s Presence. This is the practice that I am growing and part of the way I grow is to teach it. I call it a devotional practice because it is fueled by my love and longing and intuition of wholeness. And it is a practice of intention, the pure and simple intention of just being, which means being in God’s presence. Though it begins as the simplest of practices, I find that so much is required of me, and so much is revealed as my spiritual work is given to me layer by layer.

The deepest layer I call D’vekut. Here in the absence of content, essence is revealed. Boundaries of self dissolve. The mind becomes spacious. The heart expands. Over time a foundation of Presence is layered beneath my life. In order to touch that layer, I must work moment to moment in the layer I call "The Functions of Consciousness."

In order to know the purity of just being, I have found that four distinct functions of consciousness must be cultivated. They are:
1. The ability to focus attention.
2. Korban – The art of letting go of content.
3. T’shuvah – The art of returning (to the intention to be in God’s Presence).
4. M’sirat Nefesh – Surrendering of the small self to that transforming Presence.

And so my practice becomes the building of these functions. The first function, the ability to focus attention, I have found to be a prerequisite or complement to letting go. Though the practice (of sitting in God’s Presence) itself is not a "focus" meditation, if I have not learned to focus, then I also cannot let go of focus and "just be." This ability or "muscle of the mind" must be methodically conditioned and strengthened. Most meditation techniques work with this function, and perhaps in building a practice-life, this is where we must begin.

As I do this work of training, strengthening, examining, refining, and opening, another level of work is given to me. I call this level the work of Midot (attributes).

When I examine the second function, the art of letting go of content, I find that certain qualities are needed in order to let go in a way that will bring me to the level of D’vekut. I call it an "art," because it matters HOW I let go of a thought. If I push that thought away with annoyance, if I indulge it too long, identify with it or disdain it, that thought will be given the power to keep me from my depths.

In the Art of letting go, I see that I must cultivate a certain gentleness, self-compassion, as well as an awakened relaxed alertness to the workings of the mind. These then are the midot that I must have access to in order to be an artist of letting go. I find that access through working with the sacred phrase, using the words of our liturgy to unlock the particular quality, taste it, strengthen it and look into the obstacles that block the way.

The third function T’shuva – The Art of Return, serves to strengthen my intention. After the moment of letting go of a thought, there is a gesture of Return. . . return to the intention of "just being in God’s presence." HOW that return happens, and what fuels it matters. As I examine and build this function within me I find that the qualities of wholeheartedness, persistence, patience, and rigor are required.

As I explore each of these qualities, I begin to identify my obstacles and challenges. If I am to have access to those qualities when I sit with the intention of just being in God’s presence, then each of these obstacles must be attended to, understood and dissolved in the light of my awareness and love.

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When I sit with the intention to just be in God’s presence, each thought that I sacrifice sends me deeper into presence, and when I wander, each return strengthens my intention which fuels the fires of sacrifice.

The first function – the ability to focus – prepares me to enter the holy space. The second and third, Korban and T’shuvah – describes the moment to moment process of dealing with thoughts in a way that opens the door to Presence.

The fourth function, M’sirat Nefesh, describes the over-all process of transformation that I must surrender to. . .It is an awareness of the effects of the practice, and in that awareness, a consent to Presence as it transforms the heart.

The third layer of practice – the cultivation of midot – can be described as ecstatic practice. It employs heart opening techniques of breath – work, melody, rhythm, movement, inner- journeying, imagery and the building of energy. This ecstatic energy is then used in the cultivation of the four functions of consciousness, and those functions are accessed as we simply enter the silence to "just be."

I find that each moment of silent meditation is a microcosm of my life. I must deal with physical pain, mental distraction, conflicting voices.

And as the stillness in me rises, as my heart opens to the pervading Presence, I am given access to both the fullness of my incarnation, and a glimpse through to the vastness beyond. Moment by moment I am given the opportunities to enter that doorway.

The qualities that I cultivate in order to step through that doorway in meditation are the same qualities I need in order to live a life in which the fullness of my love is realized. And then as I practice each day I am growing that love. And from that watered garden each fragrant breath calls out an invitation. "Blow upon my garden that its perfume may waft out. Let my Beloved come into his garden, and eat its precious fruits."

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