The Big PC and our new Prayer Page:
Or the big psychic container that is me
Joel Rachelson, Ph.D.

One of the big things I have been pondering lately is the contradictions and dualities in my moment to moment states of consciousness.

I have been feeling/thinking/experiencing wildly contrasting and paradoxical states of consciousness or psychic websites, to follow the previous updates metaphor. I have been seriously joyful and excited about my ongoing "love affair with G-d." And I have been very very saddened and angry about my nephew in laws recent life battle with brain cancer.

Butch is a wonderful being and for him to be in this battle at this time in his life sucks big time. (Later in this piece I want to introduce the idea of a community prayer page.) In addition to these two states of consciousness or psychic website, I have also been jumping between relief and hope and fear and puzzlement about Conscious Singles as well.

There is something important here that is inherent in the conception of being a Conscious Website Finder. In the last update, I talked about the notion that being conscious means that I sit in the seats of myself, and from this perspective I recognize that I am on a psychic website. What I then realize is that I can stay on this website or move to another one. That I can, if I choose, deliberately and with intentionality click on another one.

What is inherent in this is that I must then be an amalgam of psychic websites and that there must be such a thing as a container for them.

The first of the dualities that I want to point out is that I then must be both the container for the psychic websites or states of consciousness and the individual states of consciousness themselves. That there must be a big psychic container which holds all the myriad psychic website that is me.

Technically speaking, and I think I read this in a Deepak book (and Conversations talks about this), we are a trilogy. We are the observer, the contents of the observer, and the both.

The second duality in this point is that these various states of consciousness or psychic websites can and do run the complete gamut of my being. And my being can contain them-sometimes simultaneously. Dr Rudy points out that we are an union of opposites. One aim of the Alchemy of Opposites, which Dr Rudy writes about, is the integration, not denial, of these varied aspects of ourselves.

The moral of this meandering is that I am a container for a vast array of psychic websites that can be consciously clicked on and that more than one can be foreground simultaneously. (In fact, it is rare that one exists purely in the foreground.)

So, until I become an avatar, my psychic website is more often a blend or its foregroundness rarely stays foreground.

This means that the website I am on, or state of consciousness I am in, is almost always interrupted by another. This interruption can happen in nanoseconds.

This is one the goals of a meditative practice is to get some better at being able to not interrupt ourselves. This is usually done by first noticing that we have had an interruption and then clicking back on the website we were aiming for before we interrupted ourselves.

All this by way of elucidating my experience of being joyfully in love with god while also being present with being very bummed. That it seemed difficult that I can have very different psychic moments in the flow of my conscious awareness. Yet, difficult though this may be, it simply is.

If there is a task here in this regard it may be nothing more than being conscious. Or as Deepak says, in How to Know God, to pay attention. "Since the journey to the soul happens only in awareness, if you block out awareness you impede your progress; if you pay attention you build up momentum. (p.291)"

Probably, the other task for me is to make sure that I pay attention and then I feel what I need to feel when I am where I am.

So, how about let's starting a prayer page where we can put names of folks (yourself included) that the community focuses on in a loving way and sends healing light to. I, for one, believe in the positive effects of prayer and how one's healing state of consciousness or intention can in fact transcend our psychic (or ego bound) container and effect someone far away.

This maybe a topic for a future update/meandering.

Please submit a name of someone you would like on the prayer list and I will post it. If you have suggestions for prayers and concentrations that you think would help on this page, I would love to hear from you. And please come by fairly often and send healing light and love to those on the list.

~joel